TTC

Today marked the first step I took towards officially trying to conceive (TTC).

Unofficially I have been trying since June this year - started almost (I forgot sometimes..started multivitamin only this month) daily consumption of acid folic - when my ustazah already told me to start in Dec 2017 - even before the solemnisation ceremony!

Then I started to experiece the dreaded monthly wait.. will I be late? On time? Then the feeling of crushed and burnt ... I was OK initially - I know, based on readings, at my age, the probability is getting smaller but ajal-maut-rezeki kan in God's hands? More on this later ya...

So today I went to the varsity clinic to get a referral letter.
I started the day with reading the Al-Quran after Subuh - completed Surah Ar-Rahman - So which of God's many blessings/flavors would you deny? And Dhuha prayer before coming to office.

I thank God for the all the helps He has endowed me just for today.. I called Matron Az*ma - to ask for which doctor - any doctor will do - and she guided me through the process. And even came to visit me at the registration counter.
And again, she was the one who took up my blood pressure and such.

Doc Sh*zwany (s*ngle, 3*1 yo, also with sl*pped disk due to a fall during teenage year) was so kind and helpful. She asked for my medical history - first menses is very important it seems. And for the first time, I was asked and wasn't embarassed to admit that I am s*xually active...I am married anyway - that is a clinical term - for X times or more per week

She referred to arrange for a latest blood test - previous ones was quite some time ago & my cholestrol level was a bit high huhuhu... When I went to the counter to make appointment for my blood test I faced another kind soul. That guy asked for the reason for the test and when I told him.. then he kindly suggested - if I am not in a hurry - to have my husband go for a blood test too. He offered to arrange with the doc.. he told me it took him 4 years to conceive his first baby. His friend took more than 8 years. So I registered my hubby's name - the guy asked for his medical history and I mentioned about his gouts - getting treatment at outside clinic - he said, why not register and get the treatment here? He is covered as my spouse anyway. May Allah made everything easy for the guy...he doesn't look too friendly but his action portrays his kindness indeed.

Coming out of doc's room, I came across Az*dah and after a chat - she is going for umrah in mid January, I asked her to pray for me - twin babies insyaAllah! I went to counter to get my gynae appointment  and say hi to Prof H*nafi - no time to chat since his number is being called up.

The nurses on duty at the followup counter was also too kind- she said, I have to option: basically wait for Doc to set the appointment date with the Gynae clinic and it might take some times.. or go by myself for a faster date! I choose to wait for the doc's date.

Came back to the office, had a chat with Z over our stepmom's roles ...then my baby PhD candidate came for his appointment (supposedly tomorrow so I was kinda taken by surprise too). By the time he leave my office, I received the phone call - my appointment will be on February 27th, Wednesday - wish me luck!