No.li.me.ta.nge.re

Totally not related to 'Noli me tangere' but relevant to my point below:
(From COED) nolens volens
•whether a person wants or likes something or not. Willing or not willing.
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It was a book title which I did come across long ago – was it primary or secondary school’s history lesson? Can’t remember now. Fast-fast go google!!! A-ha, I found it! Meaning, ‘Don’t touch me’.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia:
Noli Me Tangere (commonly referred to by its shortened name Noli) is a novel written in Spanish by Filipino writer and national hero José Rizal, first published in 1887 in Berlin, Germany.
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I don’t know about you, but I found out pretty much recently that I hated it when people encroach my personal space – you know, the air bubble that surrounds you which is defined as your personal right, even much more - any part of the body. I just love my own space!

At the same time, I can’t deny the fact that I like being hug, touch or pat appropriately. Like a pat on my shoulder literally for a well done job, a hug when I’m down, between family and friends, a little touch here and there…I do love hugging and patting my (still kids) nephews and nieces’ body (it’s encouraged especially for orphans – as a mark of loving attention to them, taught by prophet Muhammad-peace be upon him). Just imagine the cats purring when patted…Oohhh! The feeling is so undescribable! (maybe because I’m not a cat huh? And cats can’t talk anyway.)

What I couldn’t stand is people who literally touch me to prove a point or something, many times indeed when I just happened to be the one standing next to her (if man, surely not allowed to touch a non-muhrim kan? No-no, don’t you dare!) while conversing with a few other people. It’s like trying to monopolize my attention, grabbing or directing my attention only to her while others are also deserving of my focus. It’s ok if you do it once or twice in one sitting, but for every sentence uttered? Annoyed the hell out of me as I couldn’t focus on the conversations (my thought keep on straying to, “No-No, do not touch me!!!” Once. Twice… Soon to be followed by, “Hiyakkkk!!!” *uncontrollable chopping motions or flying kicks – dream on!*

What more can top that detestable action? When you, a mere colleague, suddenly decided to be superfriendly lovey (In Public?) by hugging my waist (or the lack of it). Why was there a need to show that we’re goody-buddy?

One of my sister, definitely she wasn’t born with such ‘gene’ otherwise I would have fallen victim to it myself. However, I notice in recent years that she has the tendency to do the same – maybe the results of too much lepakking with her ‘kind of neighbours’ – you know, friendly to a point of ‘getting under each other skins’ – euww…. If only I could tell her (without hurting her feeling), “Just stop it willya?”

I’m really getting to a point of no return where I might live to regret my action or disavow few colleagues/friends/family members…help!

P/s: I don’t know whether you notice this already or not, I’ve been repeating, ‘you know - I don’t know…’ Doesn’t it just annoy you deep down inside??

A-ha!! That is exactly what I’m feeling….

Masih Sayang

Amboi.......sedap2 mulut aje depa berkata2 ye?

I (MN messaged yesterday)
"...sampai hati kau buat aku camni.
besar sangat ke salah aku pada kau?
tapi, aku masih sayangkan kau."

II (during chat with BP today)
"...I tak nak dengar benda2 buruk berlaku
i sayang u..."

Wawawawa...remind me of F.R. David's song lyric:

"...There's (no) hidden meaning you know
When I say I love you honey
Please believe I really do cause

Words, (don't) come easy to me
How can I find a way to make you see I Love You
Words (don't) come easy..."

If you still wonder why did I still 'entertain' them - I've a hidden agenda!!
Oh God, please make me strong enough...& determined to succeed!

What a small world indeed!

I was away for the past one whole week - to present ONLY one paper (kepoh je yang lebih!) at A Beach Resort with the Largest Pool area in the East Coast hehehe...(but lain2 perkara adalah hampeh - takde bintang langsung kot!)
So I had to give a rather important occasion a miss! That occasion marked the start of my new academic year as a 'teacher'.

Given the availability of free wifi @the conference venue, i took the opportunity to keep in touch with friends on fb (while attending the sessions)...imagine my surprise when a friend told me that somebody was looking for me in campus. Er, actually he first saw me in the students' directory. When finally we managed to get in touch:
"..saja drop by your office (after 14 years tak jumpa). You are NOT one of my teacher right?" *add a nervous laugh here*
Well, thank God - I'm NOT. I'm already nervous enough as it is...to start teaching again, mature students, in Malay some more etc. Now, add to that a familiar face? Kawan sepermainan dulu2? Ewwwwwww.....

BTW, another point worth mentioning is when I started my master programme (a long, long time ago) I was in the same cohort (for Micro class) with my ex-lecturer for one of my first year degree papers. Awkwardness ruled the days....but I felt deeply honoured to be in the same class with her - after all, she's one of the best! Sad to say, somehow she didn't quite manage to complete her DBA due to reasons *better leave unspoken*. I still admire her to this day!