No turning back..

Non, Rien de rien
(No, nothing of nothing)
Non, Je ne regrette rien
(No, I regret nothing)

Ni le bien qu'on m'a fait
(Not the good things that have been done to me)
Ni le mal tout ça m'est bien égal
(Nor the bad things, to me these are the same)

Non, Rien de rien
(No, nothing of nothing)
Non, Je ne regrette rien
(No, I regret nothing)

C'est payé, balayé, oublié
(It's paid for, removed, forgotten)
Je me fous du passé
(I don't care about the past)

Avec mes souvenirs
(With my memories)
J'ai allumé le feu
(I lit the fire)

Mes chagrins, mes plaisirs
(My troubles, my pleasures)
Je n'ai plus besoin d'eux
(I don't need them anymore)

Balayés les amours
(Swept away my past loves)
Avec leurs trémolos
(With their tremors)

Balayés pour toujours
(Swept away for always)
Je repars à zéro
(I start again from zero)

Non, Rien de rien
(No, nothing of nothing)
Non, Je ne regrette rien
(No, I regret nothing)

Ni le bien qu'on m'a fait
(Not the good things that have been done to me)
Ni le mal tout ça m'est bien égal
(Nor the bad things, to me these are the same)

Non, Rien de rien
(No, nothing of nothing)
Non, Je ne regrette rien
(No, I regret nothing)

Car ma vie, car mes joies
(Because my life, my joys)
Aujourd'hui, ça commence avec toi
(Today, it begins with you)

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Update on neighbours & life in general

Came back late just now, after 9pm from office, saw the owner (?) of the unit below mine is washing the floor at the entrance. Tried to catch her look (Malay, Chinese, Indian, others?) - maybe say hi too - but to no avails.

The unit above mine has been occupied since ...hmm... can't remember exactly but must be before CNY, in late January. So far, all I have seen was just the light on the dryard being kept switch on always - not much affect on the bill I guess. I saw a washing machine -duh!- and that was it! I suspected a single (not family) person too.

Last Sunday (2 March), my next door neighbour's unit has completed some repairs  by Rohman,a Bangladeshi worker - cracked walls everywhere especially the corner of window frames in all 3 rooms, sliding doors & our shared wall in the living room (Thank God not on my side, surprisingly!). Rohman told me it might be due to drilling and renovation works upstairs. But, ...I have had renovation works done on my side, upper & lower unit too. Oh, by the way, the internal contractor'' contract has been extended for another 6 months, from March onwards.

So, she's definitely not moving in (extensive renovation ahead) soon and I'm still the only Malay occupant on my floor. Earliest occupants must be the three Chinese families: next to Lift 3&4, the end outside unit of the other U-side (with large flower pots) & my other right-hand side neighbour. There were others who got their place ready for CNY but not yet fully moved in. Need to remind myself to collect a new car sticker (again!?) soon - got the notice yesterday.

My bed is getting smaller nowadays, must the nightly tossing around - having some trouble gettting my eyes shut (due to too much coffee in daytime in order to stay awake, don't know which one is the cause/effect) and often times I found myself getting dangerous to drop on the floor huhuhu.. So the 4-foster queen (or do I dare to dream for a King?) complete with hanging white muslins, bed side tables, tall-drawers unit, might as well get my nested tables (in replacement of a proper coffee table) and a small half-moon unit for the corridor leading to the rooms. Maybe a picture rail too? Hmmm...

My composting (with RM5 pamphlet as a guide) efforts suck.. I had maggots all over the kitchen floor.. near the dustbin. Too little kitchen waste (batang bayam, coffee dregs etc.) & no proper layers. But I planted the bulbs (RM5 for 3 of what? aiyoyo I forgot already..) from Botanika, last 23 February, and now two of them are showing their early shoots. I'm keeping the leftover water from cooking rice in the fridge (haha! Genius of me eh? No more smelly, disgusting water for days) and use it to water the bulbs..

My Sayang Tuah-Jebat-Lekir-Kasturi are doing ok too.. Idah bought me the colourful pebbles (RM3). I am thinking of some 'tukun' perhaps for them to hide in? Instead of changing the water twice a week, they are considered lucky if I got to do it almost after every two weeks now huhuhuhu..

Went to visit a village for a community session yesterday. And I got the seeds for Ismet Ul*m Raja!!! I already have the experience from growing lady finger in 2012 so... that is going to be my project for next week! Why next week....(see 2 paragraph below)

Penang W*men's Run - no hills! -  i did 6km in about 43 min (but the top winner took only 26 min!) so averaged pacing of 7:15. I remember when I started counting (must the PB*M2012 I averaged closed@more than 9 minutes). Don't know whether I'll get to run  on this weekend's MWM* due to the haze and threat of heat stroke. The organizer is saying it will depend on the API reading by Saturday, 6pm. I have booked my return flights, so either ways, I am still heading south to balik kampung. Mak is not feeling well, must be the dry weather and I've been too caught up with work (among other things) lately.

It's going to be day 6 now...my prayers for those on MH37* - things are getting crazier! But in Allah we trust..

I'm getting there.. insyaAllah. He is always in my prayers and I want him to be happy too. Me? Live life with no regret. And it's time to move on..

My mistakes, expecting too much from him. Lesson learnt the hard way: CAPABLE of taking responsibility, COMPROMISE, COMMUNICATE & COMMIT - my 3Cs or was it 4? huhuhu.. I am far from perfect and need to improve myself a lot in every ways. Rad no te rajes (Don't give up!)!

Headless

The whole unit is having a 3 days workshop til Wednesday, out of the office but no-no.. no budget for hotel this time around! We are supposed to work on the strategic plans for the next 5-10 years.

The small boss said, "Bullshit!" in front of our esteemed guests (luckily the 2nd top person in management already left us). No excuses, he said, "I'm just being me!" Right... I supposed so.

My honest opinions? We are like headless chicken, just waiting to be slaughtered (redundant!) - haha! Change or no change?

The person next to me, F, asked, "Why are you so pissed off with the small boss?" Simply because I didn't like his style.. I also can't imagine working along him without losing my patience. I am tired of everyone making jokes on my section just because we are having few (I can literally count with one hand *sigh*) students and I certainly do not have the intention to be in his shoes (his current position)!

I am still mad with my so-called friends aka colleagues.. I don't like to hear them talking behind my back and I certainly don't like them poking fun of me.

Alas...I do feel like crying since..

20140227 - Bearing the brunt of malicious gossip, stumped me for words! Unbelievable..
Just because you read the Prof's comment on my wall post.. so we are now an item for gossip fodder? What a small world mentality! I proposed for a conference to be organized next year and put myself and the Prof in the committee too - so now more evidence to support my crime? Speechless..

After 5 years working together, finally I am getting the understanding that no one is ever to be trusted!

And office gossips? Nothing is further from the truth, it is all lies and no one to be trusted!

On the other hand, I believed I have made the best decision since what I fear to happen already happened - my so-called scandal with him are out in the open. I am never so glad that I hastened out of the intricate situation before it was too late...help me God!