One of my bro said (this is with regards to efforts to reconcile current 'siblings' rivalries' which is obviously quite normal I guess for a dynamic, large family like mine but still make mak very, vey sad & thus a final verdict of no family gathering during this Ramadhan or the coming Eid month-long celebration),
"...you don't know how it feels to be hurted so deeply by someone you love (& hold dear to your heart)..."
All I was thinking inside,
"Yeah, you're right!!" *Please note the use of sarcasm here*
Yes we all know that it won't hurt so much if there wasn't so much love involved.
Well, what is it that I'm trying to say here?
The fact that I vivaed recently & passed with some minor correction but somehow the feeling of being elated, reaching the pinnacle of my laborious efforts all these years (more than 6 to be exact!! When others easily finished in 3!!), are simply not here or there & 'though I'm really happy that mak feels proud of me (if only ayah is still around today, he would has shed some big drops - tears of happiness - so that kinda explained why I easily shed tears too) but why do I still feel empty inside?
